Don’t stay in a sad place where they don’t care how you are.

I won’t anymore ! I promise I won’t !!

I think January is the most depressing month of the year.
I think that every year and this is confirmed to me as time goes by.
Every January I realize that much of the power and self confidence with which I made my resolutions were coming from alcohol rather than inner self. And I get disappointed realising that once again I will fail by the end of the year, and in 11 months’ time I won’t have learnt anything.
This year, the more blogs I read and the more people I talk to I hear that basically they all want to put themselves first. They want to be alone and happy and selfish. And for some time they even try it and they like it. Shouldn’t it be the opposite? Shouldn’t people think that they want to share more, to be with each other more and to give more? At least with the holiday haze shouldn’t they be willing to some closeness? I think this is wrong..and I think of it as being a very sad 2012.
I used to be like that too. Sometimes I still like to lie to myself and think that I would be happier alone and that I wouldn’t need anybody, and that I should be selfish because I deserve it. But this life if not about myself as much as the people I love and the people I want to be with.